O-A-S-I-S

oh my goodness. like the first day after camp, i'm starting to slack.
sinful vivien.
satan have finally declared war on me now, 1 day after camp.
ok, i'm going to have a spiritual war with him now.
God help me ok?

this camp really really refresh me from the inside out.
also my first time prophesying, scary though, but i did it!
instead of telling what i did for camp,
i'm going to share what really convicts me.

i went back home feeling refresh,
the first thing i do is to use computer.
ok and get some songs into my phone.
i sat down and ponder about some stuffs and many images just come into my mind.
like seeing myself taking photos with 20 people from
yishun town and northland.
and challenging 30 people in the next camp.
my heart started to pump really fast.

i went back to room, images just keep on flowing
and i started to fear, i feel like what's all the images,
i told God; nah, i can't do it at all, not me!
as i listened to the songs, the lyrics just cut my heart.
i broke into tears and cried. [you won't see me doing that]
God told me; You can surely do it, you have the abilities, the potential.
the thing is: you don't persevere, low faith.
and i kept on crying,
i did not know how much God believe in me,
it's a believe in me that no one can shaken.
i told God; okay, help me and change me, mould me.
then God reminded me of Moses.
He did remind me when i was lower sec, but i forget about it.
but now it come back to my mind.
Moses also doubt at first but he led 2 million out of Eygpt in the end.

with this vision in my mind, i will go towards it.
of course satan won't let me do it.
he will throw discouragement, make me lazy.
i told God; let me fix my eyes on you, everything, on you.
and i intend to start to fast to prepare me.
on computer, on meat. ok, this is seriously difficult
but God will make it.
TO CHIONG ALL THE WAY FOR GOD!
i can't compromise anymore. But to give it all.
it's tough, but it takes peseverance.

a new land, a new vision, a new challenge, a new set of obstacles,
filled my life again. because God will be there with me.
What can't He do?
nothing.
i just need to let go and let God.
i really don't know how, but God knows.


i want to be the seed, to see the uncountable .


p.s. don't bother to ask me to do the quiz,
i have no time to do all these things. (: