ponder upon yokeleng's blog .
it's so nice and touching that i decided to copy & paste to my blog :D

My love note to my Daddy in heaven.

For a while,
my dear Daddy.
I've thought for a while.
There's just so many things
I wanna say, I really don't know where to start.
So, I've thought for a while and eventually
Daddy, I really want to thank you for Jesus.
Because of Jesus,
I am able to receive your blessings.
It's just so noble of you. So loving.
Oh, I almost forgot.
You're a loving God (:
In the toughest time of my life,
You've never failed to be there for me.
Never failed bring me out the my state of despondency,
to lift my spirits.
It's almost like You've revived me again and again.
When I'm weak and crumbling,
You grant me generously with strength.
So that I may stand up for You.
I don't care what they say or think,
I'll love You. I'll always do.
When I'm slipping away from You,
can You please on to me tight?
You're the best thing that ever happened to me Daddy,
I don't ever wanna lose You.
Let me grow righteously in your Kingdom,
so I may show other people how You have blessed me.
Teach me the truth so that I may also
tell other people that they have a God
who loves them unconditionally.
Wait for me Daddy,
One day, I'll be there with You.
Amen (:

[adapted from yokeleng's blog]

tomorrow is a totally depend on God day.

there's SS and Chinese Paper 1 tomorrow.
and i need to ask God for a super good memory to memorise the points. :D

and for a little long time,
i'm gonna touch my guitar for caregroup,
ok, i'll pray that i won't have any "guitar-fear".

41 days to Oasis [duh, not the school library] ! so looking forward!!
and i have to solve the $120.
so i tried to persuade my dad, it came a mini joke.

dad: why always go camp?
me: at home also nothing to do.
dad: orh orh..
me: orh orh.. means can go?
dad: orh..
mum: aiya, wait till he strikes toto or 4D
me: did he have the face that he'll strike?

I WANNA GO CAMP!!

Quarta ;D

Quarta [Wednesday]
couldn't think of any better title xDD

i was looking through my archives,
some high moments, some low moments, some hilarious, some are not .
i even laughed at some of my previous posts , that young and naive vivien ;D
when i saw the posts, i reflected on my previous enthusiasm and fire for God .
and at the moment, i asked myself: am i still that enthusiastic as last time?
if yes, continue it . if no, am i going to fire up again?
i want, i want and i WANT!!
i want to be how i'm enthusiastic for God at first , it shouldn't burn down!
your passion and vision will keep you going :D
and i'm going too,
i have not fufil the promise that i made with God in X29 ,
not gonna drag anymore, no time to waste ;D

yeah! i'm encouraged by my sheepies :D
i'm encourage by yong qing's never-say-die attitude in bringing people, so does kahyue .
i'm encourage that yokeleng and weixuan continue to cling on to God even though they have parental objections .
they taught my valuable lessons :D
and i'm shepherding two sheeps tomorrow, it's been long since i've done that
oohhh.. so excited :D
God, give me STRENGTH!!

back to what i do today.. GEE, took so long to blog xDD
ok, today is a not a lousy day .
afternoon assembly is super boring, the international friendship day concert,
hmmm... not so interesting, no atmosphere D:
did not even do any work in peer tutoring, coordinate geometry,
don't feel like doing, though i did know how to do..
Mrs Lee is back! TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! [AH!!!]
after that is caregroup! :DD

Caregroup is super hilarious.
there's a guy who yokeleng and weixuan brought ,
he looks -.-
then he saw lisa brought fries,
he said: ask me whether i want fries or not .
lisa was blur, he speak over 5 times and lisa still don't get it .
hahaha, tingting and me was laughing mad xDD
they reactions was super funny .
i guess everyone did bond well :D
caregroup was fun! :DDD

two funny scenerios happened to me this week,

one was yesterday,
i met this boy which was know the boy with attitude problem .
so i was queuing up to buy food and CJ called my name,
that boy was there!

he said: your name is vivien?
i'm like ya, why can't i ?
boy: i know de vivien [or vivian] is fat, how come this one so skinny?
me: better than you, so short .
boy: [doesn't want to get defeated] vivien or vivian is fat fat de, how come you so skinny?
me: hey! Does ALL VIVIENS[VIVIANS] need to be FAT! SIAO!
and CJ was laughing away.
the end .

ok, next one, happened at home few minutes ago..

i don't remember what happen, but my father suddenly popped up something.
ugh!! couldn't remember...

D:

yawns.
here i am blogging again -.-
i'm seriously packed this few days, ministry, school .....
and mid year is coming in a week's time or so, it's so fast luh!
ok, i gotta mug !

finally finished cdl project, madeline did MOST of the work [ guilty eh ]
and there's almost 3 periods of biology,
ok, i almost fell asleep at the last 30 mins xDD
it's really boring,
and there's test tomorrow, grrr...
but i've done my revision :D

i went to popular today and i saw many many cards and bookmarks,
they words printed there are super meaningful, shall share one,
i've even took a picture it, but lazy to upload .

God has not promised skies always blue,
flower-strewn pathways all our lives through,
God has not promised sun without rain,
joy without sorrow, peace without pain .

But God promised strength for the day,
rest for the labour, light for the way,
grace for the trials, help from above,
unfailing sympathy, undying love.
-Kristone

it's a little impossible to believe that popular even sell such cards,
hahaha, everything around always surprises us.
ok, my eyes are gonna close soon,
shall get some sleep -.-zz..

after commenting on imeem, i can access it miraculously.
or is it God?
ok, i changed back to the old song, but i really like this song,
still learning how to play the song by guitar,
really practising hard, don't worry, i did practice other songs too .

ok, shall blog about today's service .
it's AWESOME!
God's presence filled the whole auditorium from right to left, front to back .
there's two brothers from hope brisbane leading P&W
IT'S SO POWERFUL !!
i really enjoyed today's service .
and Yishun Town hit 6!! [Two rows ;D]
Praise God!! really thank God!!

after that have North A meet :D
played games, and joan did forfeit again xDD
Joan's forfeit week xDD
and rush to nike meet .
glad to know the east girls ;D

after that, celine, liyan and me went to makan,
and meet mdm ma!! AHHH!! i miss her!!!
and chit chatted a lot, her days in rp, our group blah blah.. :D

i'm planning to disturb celine's blog,
NEVER UPDATE!! i'll help her by typing nonsense post!
Wakakakakakakas!!

shepherding with yokeleng tomorrow :D
and gonna mug D:

TGIF!

back to blog :D
seriously, nowadays, the internet connection in my house is loading slower,
it affects quite much,
i can't really access into imeem.com T.T i wanna change song...
ok, nevermind, shadowfeet is nice too :D

yesterday was a okok day.
because there's speech day reharsal, so the class looks empty.
lessons are somehow affected.
dint even have chemistry lesson, just do work only.
actually before that, there's a war going on.
i threw a paperball at jeevan, then everyone threw other things at him.
i declared the war .
ok, then the rest, i dint see anything happen xD

today's the best!
release at 9.50am, it's like having 4 periods only.
and there's no chemistry extended lesson,
now all teachers are chionging the chapters.
and went to meet weixuan and yokeleng,
although their faith was shaky, in the end they put their faith in God.
i prayed for them to be retain and God answered it :D
and yeah, another blessing to share,
i was rushing to the bus stop to take the bus,
i told God, wait for me uh, don't let the bus run away,
and God said, okok, faster, it's coming,
when it's 10 step away from the bus stop, the bus came,
and i wasn't late, i reached there at 6.55am, earliest record of all.
:D
i've done 97% of my chem homework ;D

listen to this song: in your freedom [ hillsong ]
sorry uh, i can access to youtube better than imeem.

to the discourage or doubt in God's presence in difficult situations,
these verses are meant for you :D

Psalm 34 [The Message]

2 I live and breathe God;
if things aren't going well, hear this and be happy:

5 Look at him; give him your warmest smile.
Never hide your feelings from him.

6 When I was desperate, I called out,
and God got me out of a tight spot.

7 God's angel sets up a circle
of protection around us while we pray.

8 Open your mouth and taste, open your eyes and see—
how good God is.
Blessed are you who run to him.

17 Is anyone crying for help? God is listening,
ready to rescue you.

18 If your heart is broken, you'll find God right there;
if you're kicked in the gut, he'll help you catch your breath.

19 Disciples so often get into trouble;
still, God is there every time.

20 He's your bodyguard, shielding every

22 God pays for each slave's freedom;
no one who runs to him loses out.

When God said it, He meant it,
Put your trust in Him and He will show the way.
He's never early, never late, but just on time.
Put your faith in Him, believe in what is unseen,
for what is seen is temporary, what is unseen is eternal.
You did not make the wrong decision,
the devil's making you [idoitic!]
continue to stand firm, prove the devil that you're strong,
may God grant you strength and peace,
for God will carry you through, i witnessed it once, twice, thrice,
God will NEVER EVER FAIL .
Keep a positive mind :D
Is your heart still on fire?

Psalm 34 [The Message]

1 I bless God every chance I get; my lungs expand with his praise.

2 I live and breathe God;
if things aren't going well, hear this and be happy:

3 Join me in spreading the news;
together let's get the word out.

4 God met me more than halfway,
he freed me from my anxious fears.

5 Look at him; give him your warmest smile.
Never hide your feelings from him.

6 When I was desperate, I called out,
and God got me out of a tight spot.

7 God's angel sets up a circle
of protection around us while we pray.

8 Open your mouth and taste, open your eyes and see—
how good God is.
Blessed are you who run to him.

9 Worship God if you want the best;
worship opens doors to all his goodness.

10 Young lions on the prowl get hungry,
but God-seekers are full of God.

11 Come, children, listen closely;
I'll give you a lesson in God worship.

12 Who out there has a lust for life?
Can't wait each day to come upon beauty?

13 Guard your tongue from profanity,
and no more lying through your teeth.

14 Turn your back on sin; do something good.
Embrace peace—don't let it get away!

15 God keeps an eye on his friends,
his ears pick up every moan and groan.

16 God won't put up with rebels;
he'll cull them from the pack.

17 Is anyone crying for help? God is listening,
ready to rescue you.

18 If your heart is broken, you'll find God right there;
if you're kicked in the gut, he'll help you catch your breath.

19 Disciples so often get into trouble;
still, God is there every time.

20 He's your bodyguard, shielding every bone;
not even a finger gets broken.

21 The wicked commit slow suicide;
they waste their lives hating the good.

22 God pays for each slave's freedom;
no one who runs to him loses out.

i was reading this verse in the afternoon,
when i intended to sit down and relax,
so i asked God to give me a chapter that i can reflect on,
and here it is, Psalm 34, but it's clearer in message version.
many verses from this chapter hit me hard,
which assure me of God working in my life,
God is my strength and He's always there .
my heart is at peace..

Jeez, my sis brought kindaichi comic series 1 to 27,
when i go to northpoint popular and see,
all the old kindaichi book is almost gone,
hahahaha!
i'm gonna read until i mad,
not now, maybe, i guess..

:D

yeah! blogging!
was back home more early today :D
so i had nothing to do, no ledger paper to do accounts,

ok, yesterday there was a relief teacher,
she used to teach art last year, as a trainee teacher,
trainee teacher have to be humble to learn at first.
ok.. blah blah blah, she's confirmed a art teacher of yss.
first step in to 3e7, never sit down, do pumping,
and she became more and more unreasonable,
i was really very fed up,
even PE and UG teachers are not like that,
she's just an ART teacher and become so proud.
of course many protest,
i said; if she's the teacher i/c for a uniform group, that CCA will confirm close down.
luckily, she's not... phew, RIDICULOUS!
then all volcanoes exploded, protested and rebelled,
and she finally stopped doing all those nonsenscial punishments, as if we're at army.
i guess she read To Kill A Mockingbird, and want to apply it, [Scout and Miss Caroline]
if she will to come and relief and do nonsense stuffs again,
i will recommend the school to sack her!! Crazy!

today, service!
changed place, to the back!
and praise seems so low... really, not really enthusiastic D:
but luckily the last song brought the atmosphere up.
ok, after that, everything's fine.
then have district huddle, thrilling games,
there's a pervertic guy at istana park who kept on staring at north a
another crazy one =.-"""
and there's a good news,
NORTH A HIT 20 FOR CAREGROUP!!!
so happy :D it's like, FINALLY!!!
SMILES :DDDDDDDDDDD



i wanted to psycho my father to buy an acoustic guitar for me,
by doing well in my end of year exam .
the black one is not mine, it belongs to someone else.
so i went around and search the internet for
PURPLE ACOUSTIC GUITAR
and i found this two pictures which caught my attention:

the first one look AWESOMELY ROCKS!

the second one looks okay... [view from left to right.]

in the end, my father say: USE YOUR OWN MONEY!

GO TO THE BANK AND WITHDRAW,

i'm like, can, provided you bring me to the bank and withdraw,

cause my account is under his name T.T

ok, i saw pink guitars and also other colour in the internet,

but purple look really nice to me, cause i like purple ;D

WOW! LLOONNGG post!

blog will here then.. :D

Today is a very good day!
I'm prepared to flunk my maths and chemistry test.
Ah!

there's no amaths and POA, so is three hours free from the maths!
自由が見つかりました！

Today there are no extra lessons today!! yeah!!
I am looking forward to Saturday!

actually it was japanese words, but the translation are horrible,
basically, i went to outreach with ace today,
Later, i went to shepherd yong qing. and other things happened as well.
Google translation are lousy; for japanese only,
but it comes in handy :D
it's better to learn japanese on your own.
However, 日本語を学ぶのは楽しいことです!

Blog till here then..
なんてこった！明日の生物学には、ボーリング！

it's troublesome to blog in Japanese =.-""
Really very...

i'm feeling seriously very calm,
and i get another chiding from my father, for nothing,
he's angry that my mother pour away some drinks,
and again he find fault in me and scold me,
ah.. i've been tolerating it since sec one,
i'm his 24 hour angry container, anything not happy, just vent it on me.
the reason why he can't vent it on others is;
first, my mum is 1 year his senior, so must respect,
second, my sis is always not at home.

i'm the youngest and always at home .


anyways, chemistry's test is tomorrow instead of today,
teacher give mercy.
plus another maths test tomorrow,
sure die x.X

gotta go do other things ;D

there are many things that i wanna thank God for yesterday and today;
first, is my POA result.
second, is my literature result. though i still can't really stand the teacher though.
third, i pass my 2.4km run, beyond my comfort zone.

well actually there are more things that i need to do.

Life's ain't easy,
God did not promise a bed of roses, but He promise that He will be with us in all circumstances .
and i'll cling on to it .

Happy April Fool Day !
Happy Spiritual Birthday, Ace !


and i shall do more homeworks and revisions,
miraculously, Mrs Lee dint bomb any maths homework ;D